I pray I’m found busy for His kingdom in my last steps
One thing that I have been thinking about late is my purpose. One of my biggest fears is that I do not accomplish it by the time that I die. It is possible to live and not actually accomplish your purpose. You can live a life according to your plans and never stop to think what it is that you were actually created for. Trust me, I have done so. But I believe that once you begin to seek God, wholeheartedly, He will lead you to your purpose and help you to accomplish it.
What I love about Esther more than anything is her obedience. She obeyed Mordecai despite the fact that she was in a high position. She was a queen and although he was her relative, he was also her subject. She was faithful and obedient to the one who put her on. She expressed her gratitude by her obedience towards him. That is how I want to be with God. I want to obey Him and learn to trust Him, so that when I die, I will not be ashamed.
I want to die empty. We are but fragile clay jars, in the hands of the One who created us. He can break us whenever He sees fit. I pray that when the time comes, all of the responsibilities that He has put in my jar will be gone and that when the jar cracks, all that will be left behind will be the pieces of clay.
When I die, I want to be remembered. Not for the things that I have done but as a reminder that God can use anyone to do anything at any given time. I want to die a death that reminds others that a life for Christ is a life worth living.
I don’t want to die yet, I feel as though I have so much more to give and do for God.
I want to live a life that makes my name worthy to be in the Book of Life and when I get to the end, may I have enough oil in my lamp to hear Him say, “Well done, good and faithful servant!”